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The Trouble With Tribbles


How can something so cute and fuzzy cause so much trouble?  Problem is they multiply and use up all your resources.  In fact they multiply so rapidly that they are tough to gather up so that you can get rid of them.  But they are so cute, right?

“Watch out for the little foxes that steal away the grapes and ruin the vineyards.”  (Song Of Songs 2:15)  Many times it is the simple, cute, little things that do us the most damage.  I am thinking of all the little sins I commit at times, and how they add up and cause more trouble in my life.  The sins that are really easy to rationalize and perhaps laugh at, instead of dealing with and moving past them.  Like any small amount of lust of the flesh, lust of the eyes and the pride of life. (I John 2:16)  I have learned, the hard way, from experience that there really is no such thing a cute or little sin. The enemy is the one who wants us to minimize our actions.  And “I have met the enemy and he is us.”( Pogo)

I sin in my thoughts almost every day, perhaps at times more, but I have learned that my shortcomings in this area are anything but cute and fuzzy.  I used to believe that my personal sins did not harm anyone, but myself.  However, now I have come to understand that “the ripple effect” of my poor choices actually does damage to others around me.  So I no longer laugh or smile at white lies, porn, lust, pride, masturbation or anything else.  Instead I take it to The Lord as soon as I can, hopefully before the thought becomes an action or sin.  Don’t get me wrong… I walk in freedom, the freedom that Jesus purchased for me on the cross.  I try not to obsess on this sort of thing, but being human I still do at times.  However Jesus tells me to just press on in HIM and that HE has already taken care of it all.

Jesus wants us to follow Him and not sweat the small stuff.  Living in a continual daily, moment to moment,  surrender and connection to Jesus allows us all the chance to walk through this life in freedom.  “Therefore , since we are surrounded by such a great cloud of witnesses, let us throw off everything that hinders and the sin that so easily entangles, and let us run with perseverance the race marked out for us.  Let us fix our eyes on Jesus, the author and perfecter of our faith….” (Hebrews 12:1-2)  I don’t know about you, but when I have my eyes on Jesus instead of my own stuff and sin I just walk a better more healthy walk.  No sin is cute or harmless.  So let us all be simply honest about it….  Continually turning it over to HIM because HE loves us, and HIS love is more than enough to get us THROUGH, and NOT over or around or under any obstacle, to the exact pathway HE wants us on each and every day.

Love and ……

Kirk Out!

P.s. Our poor puppy little Missy with 2 front broken legs gave us a scare last night. The little scamp went missing and we could not find her for a few minutes. Somehow with those broken legs she got down off the bed and went under the bed. She did not make a painful sound so she must be healing enough to be able to walk and either jump off the bed again or successfully navigate the little stairs on the side of the bed. We see her Dr. again this afternoon and will check on her progress. She has a big medical bill so if Jesus leads you to be generous and contribute to those expenses please click on the link below? Special thanks to those who have given already and to those who are even just considering a gift. We and Missy sure appreciate your help.

I Am Not A Real Captain


Those of you who know me or follow this blog know by now that I do not believe in human hierarchies within the Church.  Well, to be honest I do admit to one hierarchy being essential …. that Jesus is the one and Only King and Leader in the Church.  Jesus is indeed over all of us, but I do not believe that any follower of Christ is over or above other Christ followers.

One of the worst things that the “Church” has embraced over the centuries is the worldly military model of leadership.  The whole concept that puts one human over and above other humans in the Church is seriously flawed and is detrimental to the Body of Christ.  Sure there are times when various members of the Body need to take the lead, but putting those individuals in a set in stone position over others is just not right or beneficial to the Church.  The whole system that puts in place a chain of command within the Church with superiors and subordinates damages people and keeps most of the members of The Body of Christ from ever truly growing into the full-fledged disciples that Christ meant them to be.  I could quote scriptures ad nauseam to backup my opinion, but anyone could look at my previous blogs if they want “proof”.

I will quote one scripture here though….  recently I took special time to read through the Gospels again and I found one verse that I had previously overlooked.  Yes! Surprise!  Christopher Kirk does indeed own and read a Bible; contrary to popular belief.  I found a gem in Luke 6:40 which reads, ” A student is not above his teacher, but everyone who is fully trained will be like his teacher.”  Notice is does not say that the student is under the teacher.  Plus even when fully trained the student is never above their teacher either.  If Jesus is talking about Himself being the teacher then that says even volumes more about how having a chain of command can be dead wrong in the Church.  And let us not forget that Jesus also said that we are to call no one Teacher because we are all brothers.

Of course this is all my belief and conviction and I will not try to force anyone to agree with me.  All I want to do is share my portion with others and also receive their portion of the truth in love in return.  So I share my heart with you all here, but remember I am not a real Captain.  I am not ranked above anybody.  Calling me that is only a tongue in cheek bow to a science fiction character who shares my last name. But remember those at Penn State University, including head coach Joe Paterno, thought they were doing the right thing by following their chain of command system and because of this they failed the child victims of  horrific sex crimes.  The lesson we need to learn from this is that we need to always do the right thing according to The Spirit and not follow any human chain of command.

A precious brother my dear friend BK knew years ago, while still in the hierarchy had a strange dream that changed his life forever. He saw a multitude of people traveling together to a city. He knew it to be the people of God in their journey of life. The strange thing was, there was no apparent “leader” for them. As he watched the group encountered several ‘hardships’, needing expertise. Crossing a treacherous ravine; a raging river; a dense forest; etc. Each time a few people stepped to the forefront….sometimes men, sometimes women, sometimes even children; most of the time a mix. They would guide the rest of the people safely through, then melt back into the crowd. When he awoke he began to question the Lord. It was then those verses of us being a KINGDOM of priests began to fall into place.

I have had very similar dreams and visions over the years and they all just serve to confirm what Jesus has been revealing to me over the last 57 years concerning the totally free and fully functioning Body of Christ.  Where every single member is important and needed for the organism to thrive and grow.

Love and……

Kirk Out!

P.s. Our poor pom puppy little Missy with her two front legs broke is doing better. She hasn’t tried to chew or pull off either of her casts for five days. We are about two thousand dollars invested in her medical bills that include splinting, casting, wrapping, sedation during her resets, medication, x-rays and more. Special thanks to everyone who has given to this cause and to those praying and considering a gift in the days to come. Some might say why ever spend so much on a pet? But to us Missy is not just a pet. She is family and a great emotional support dog as is Lil Joe. If you feel prompted by The Spirit to give please click on the link below?

The BORG has a Queen?


I was watching The Star Trek film FIRST CONTACT awhile back and it struck me how much the BORG is like the Traditional/Institutional Church.  Like modern church missionaries the BORG sends out its workers to convert and assimilate  people of other cultures and lands into its own collective, robbing them of  their own uniqueness, distinctions and personal qualities.  Then the church teaches them to tithe which really is nothing new to the native converts because in their tribal religions they are accustomed to paying off a Deity to avoid punishment and bring blessings and goodwill to their tribes.  Sure the “church” says they are teaching its new members to be more like Jesus, but in the end all they really do is make them more like themselves.  Where have I heard that before?  Oh yeah it was Jesus in Matthew 23:15 “You travel over land and sea to win a single convert, and when he becomes one, you make him twice as much a son of hell as you are.”  Truth is that much of the “church” wants clones and NOT disciples.

Breathe Captain, breathe….

Back to FIRST CONTACT…. And just when you thought the BORG was some sort of utopian socialist collective of peers and equals… WHAM …. there it is!  The BORG has a Queen!  It is not communal it is a freaking Hierarchy!  The worker BORGS actually work for and serve the Queen and NOT the collective.  Now where do we see  this in the Traditional church?  We see it when A PASTOR, or Pastors rule over a congregation with some sort of hierarchy.  Where there is ANY sort of pecking order and someone is getting paid honor and perhaps money there you have an non-biblical hierarchy.  I say “non-biblical” because the ONLY possible biblical hierarchy in the New Covenant is this:  JESUS IS The KING and all the rest of us are NOT!  The Jesus way is simple and He says it this way, “But you are not to be called ‘Rabbi” (Master, or any official title of honor), for you have only one Master and you are ALL brothers.  and do not call anyone on earth ‘father’, for you have one Father, and He is in heaven.  Nor are you to be called ‘teacher’ (Pastor), for you have one Teacher, The Christ.  For whoever exalts himself will be humbled, and whoever humbles himself will be exalted.  (Matthew 23: 8-12)

That all seems pretty damn clear to me.  The truth is that no Christ Follower is supposed to be positionally OVER or UNDER another Christ Follower.  We are all supposed to be humble equal sibling peers and the absolute greatest calling any of us has.. is to truly BE a loving Sister or Brother to whosoever will.

Love and…….

Kirk Out!

P.s.  It was pointed out to me that I may have painted with too broad of a brush on this particular blog post.  Of course not all “churches” are as cold, mechanical and uncaring as the BORG.  Normally I use the words much or most of the institutional/Traditional “church” when referring to the System.  For some reason I failed to do so today and for that I apologize.  The IC system is wrong and damages most of the people inside of it and for saying that I won’t apologize.  Sure some IC’s are better than others and some ways of churching or more excellent than others.  I hope this clarifies my heart on this matter.  Thank you!

P.s.s. Our pom puppy has two purple casts now and thank Jesus she is not chewing or tugging on either one of them. Missy sees the vet again on Monday and the overall medical bill is now over two thousand dollars. Special thanks to those of you who have contributed towards Missy’s expenses with your hard earned money. We have a wellness plan at the vets, but it does not cover broken bones, sedatives, casting, x-rays, or certain meds. So to all you pet lovers and Kirk lovers out there PLEASE prayerfully consider a small gift and click the link below?

The Final Frontier?


The film critics all hated, “The Final Frontier”, the fifth Star Trek motion picture.  It was pretty universally panned and called a failure.  However, I really liked it.  The heart of this film was not its special effects, guest stars,  or complicated plot.  The simple art of friendship was at its core.  It all boiled down to three old friends sitting around a campfire, talking, eating and singing songs.  I just love that!  It might not make for an exciting film base or big box office, but it makes a huge comment on what life should really be all about.

Captain Kirk, Spock and Bones were celebrating life together in its finest form.  They were having fellowship with one another.  The New Testament Greek word for fellowship is koinonia and it means partnership, participation, communion, friendship or social intercourse.   This important word is used over a dozen times in the New Testament and it is an all important ingredient to actually BEING the Church.  1 John 1:7 says, “But if we walk in the light, as He is in the light, we have fellowship with one another, and the blood of Jesus, His Son, purifies us from all sin.”  I know the movie analogy breaks down here because their fellowship was not in Jesus, but you get my point anyway I trust.

True fellowship in Jesus includes intimacy, partnership, participation, communion, friendship and social intercourse.  Sitting in a pew and singing along to a few tunes is not really full participation.  1 Corinthians 14:26 puts the truth right out there when it says, “…When you come together, EVERYONE has a song, or a word of instruction, a revelation, a tongue or an interpretation.  ALL of these MUST be done for the strengthening of the church.”  In true church fellowship EVERYONE has a contribution to the ongoing dialogue and conversation.  True church fellowship is NOT a series of sermons or monologues.  It is open sharing as The Spirit leads with multiple people sharing.  Anything less is, well less than what GOD intended for all of us.  Just how often do we settle for less, and why?  Sorry, end of rant.  I just get really passionate about the church and its need to be fully open, participatory and free.

Now back to friendship…… we really ought to deeply know and get along with those we fellowship with. True friendship should come and flow naturally between those who love Jesus.  Sharing our complete lives with one another is something Jesus desires for us.  This is much more difficult within large groups, so I suggest smaller groups whenever possible.

I had difficulty writing this blog today.  There is so much I want to express, but I feel limited by words.  And please do not get me wrong, I am not giving edicts and telling everyone what to do.  All I want to do is share my portion and be an encouragement.  If I failed at this today, then I apologize

Love and…….

Kirk Out

P.S. I hope all of you have a few very close friends you can just hang out and just BE with.  It is really simple, but oh so sweet too.  When we have those in our lives that we can completely bare our hearts to, it makes our lives so much easier to navigate.  That type of caring and openness is just so valuable, needed, rare and awesome.

P.s. Our pretty little pom puppy chewed and pulled off both her casts again the other night. She is sure cute, but her cuteness is wearing thin as our medical costs get thicker. Please pray and also consider giving us a small gift towards those expenses? If you have already donated I say thank you again.

You can give at the following link:

Where the hell is Counselor Troi when you need her?


What I am about to share is not a popular topic among most Christians.  It is one of those “close your eyes and pray, maybe it will go away” type of things.  But, facts are facts and they should not be ignored.  My name is Christopher Kirk and I suffer from major depression and PTSD among other things.  There!  Now it is out there and we can discuss it.  I was diagnosed about 23 years ago, but I really believe that my depression started at an early age.  Being brutally abused in about all the ways you can possibly be abused (sexually, physically, emotionally, verbally) has a way of messing with your head.  The beatings alone do a big trick on your brain chemistry.  At a time when your brain really needed to be further developed.  I honestly do not know what my psyche lacks, but I am thinking that there are some huge holes in there that need some serious patching.

Don’t get me wrong, The Lord has brought me a ton of healing over the years and we have made great progress.  However, my pit of despair seems to still be with me most days.  I take anti-depressants every day and most of the time they help some, but it is like I never get fully over the hump of my sorrows. Jesus is with me in this I do not doubt because HE too was,” a man of sorrows familiar with suffering.”

Paul wrote in Romans 9 that, “I have great sorrow and unceasing anguish in my heart.”  If this apostle suffered in such a way… why should I be exempt?  Yet there are many religious folks out there that simply say that God’s children should never suffer from such things.  They pray for healing (which I am all for), but if the healing does not come.  They say the one who was suffering must be in sin or lacking in faith.  When the simple truth is that some depression or suffering is just part of living life on life’s terms in this day and age.

The way I get through each day is simple.  I depend on Jesus and fellowship with my siblings in Christ.  Since I have not tried to hide my afflictions my sisters and brothers are able to come alongside me and help carry my burdens, and in turn I do the same with them.  When I say fellowship I do not mean sitting in rows where all I can see and relate to is the back of someone’s head.  To me fellowship is an all inclusive deal.  It is totally shared life between believers.  It means totally being there for each other with warts, blemishes, sins, farts and all. I am talking about deep relationship here.  I am talking about shared life and holding nothing back from the table, not even the embarrassing stuff.  When I get depressed and down they lift me up.  When they get in a jam I am there for them.  Quite simply we are more than family and we belong with one another.  Through all the ups and downs and twists and turns of life,  We are HIS Body.

Today is not such a great day for me, but due to some encouragement from my believing friends I will get by.  Better than that eventually I will overcome.  But, until then ” I want to know Christ and the power of His resurrection and the fellowship of sharing in His sufferings, becoming like Him in His death. and so, somehow, to attain to the resurrection from the dead.”

Love and……,

Kirk Out!

P.s.  Wow!  I wrote this blog post in August 2011, the very first month of this blog’s existence.  I sit here now in awe of just how far Jesus has brought me in the last 12.5 years.  These days depression is minimal in my life and I rarely visit “the pit of despair” and I haven’t had a full blown PTSD episode in over 11 years.  I literally take less than half the amount of medication that I used to and will be reducing it even more in the coming months.  I am pretty certain that makes me a walking miracle.  I have the best friends anyone could ask for and the fellowship we share in Christ is so full and rich that I cannot hardly begin to express its depth with mere words.  Jesus has put the most wonderful wife in my life and I am very grateful for that.  Feelings of fear and dread that used to be with me everyday are simply nowhere to be found now.  I now look forward to every day and my future is very promising.  Thanks to Jesus, my sibling peers in Christ, Talena, my Spirit filled psychiatrist, and a counselor who is closer than a brother.  I am now living my life in Christ to its fullest with no regrets.  I would not be who I am today without being able to share openly and honestly about my afflictions, struggles and problems.  Totally free & open, Spirit led fellowship and being able to hold nothing back has set me free.  That is why I deeply desire to help others find true, rewarding and rich fellowship.  Freedom is out there people.  So please don’t give up.  Thanks for listening.

P.s. Well, Missy the little scamp that she is removed her left front leg cast last night even though she was in her small kennel wearing the cone of shame. She can be a feisty one for sure. Whoever is reading this PLEASE prayerfully consider a small gift to help cover Missy’s mounting medical expenses? It is easy to give just click on the link below?

“Damn it Jim, I’m a Doctor not a cook!”

Greetings Crew,

When our little group of believers gather together for fellowship we “normally” start with a complete shared meal. Eating together is an extremely important thing for churches to do.  Breaking bread with one another is something deeply human and deeply Spiritual.  We gather together to share our blessings both temporal and spiritual and the home cooked meal represents how we go about sharing these Divine blessings with one another.

At our time of gathering EVERYone brings a substantial contribution to the meal.  Each household is responsible to bring enough food and drink to share with their whole church family.  We rarely organize this ahead of time, except for perhaps a few phone calls to make sure we are not doubling up on any given dish.  Our fellowships take our communion meal so seriously that we honestly refer to ourselves as THE FIRST CHURCH OF MEAT COOKED ON FIRE.

So we sit down and share a big meal together.  We all sit around the table and around the room where we are either side by side or face to face with our fellow eaters.  All of this is by intentional choice.  Yes, we really want to just hang out and just eat with one another.  And as we eat the conversations flow in a great number of directions and topics.  Yes, exactly just like we are gathering with our extended natural family.  Because we totally recognize and surrender to the Spiritual fact that we really are HIS family and we belong to one another in the Body of Christ.

After the meal we all clean up together and after that we reassemble for a more centered and focused time of sharing, singing and prayer.  Guess what?  We treat this time together just like we went about preparing for the common meal.  EVERYONE has a contribution.  We then all share in turn as The Spirit leads us.  Then we simply eat from the Tree of Life found in one another and converse until we are full.  It is that simple!  It is that real!

The second chapter of Acts talks about the early church coming together to share teaching, fellowship, eating and prayer.  It says they broke bread in their homes and “ate together with glad and sincere hearts.”  Should we in the 21’st century settle for anything more or less?  GOD has not changed!  And YES it really is that simple.  Every member brings their portion to share and it always works out and Jesus is always lifted up and glorified in our midst.

Love and…….

Kirk Out!

P.s. UPDATE on our pom puppy M.. E.. Loo…. Well we had to go back to the vet because Missy chewed and pulled the cast off her front right leg. Re-casting and sedation was over 250 bucks. So far we have been given some much needed money, but we are praying and hoping for more or we might not be able to travel at all this year. If HE prompts you to give please click on the link below.



I know I am different and not quite right off the rack, but one of my favorite moments from all the Star Trek movies is found in “GENERATIONS”.  It is the scene where Picard has gone into the reality altering NEXUS RIBBON and he has found Captain Kirk.  They are riding horses and Kirk jumps over a chasm, turns around and jumps the same chasm again.  He has a look of dismay on his face and he looks at Picard and says, “That wasn’t real.”  You see Kirk had jumped at that very spot dozens of times in his life and he always felt some danger and excitement in his gut, but not this time.  This time he knew that because he was in the NEXUS that the jump was not authentic or real.  He realized that he was living within a fantasy, and that did not please or satisfy him.  At first Kirk enjoyed the NEXUS because he could relive wonderful moments in his life, but after his realization at the chasm he knew that in his heart he required life to be real and not fake.

Picard came to the NEXUS to recruit James T. Kirk for a dangerous and life threatening mission.  At first Kirk balked because he was enjoying the benefits of living in the fantasy that the NEXUS provided.  However, upon Kirk’s discovery that the NEXUS was not reality, he quickly agreed to go on Picard’s mission to save others and The Enterprise and its crew. Kirk knew full well that this was a very dangerous life or death situation, but the good Captain chose grim reality over staying in a world that was not real.

Now ask yourself the question…..  which choice would you make?  Beyond that speculation based on Sci-fi, what choices do you make in everyday life?  Do you choose what is real and authentic or do you chase fantasies?  Is the life you live centered in the reality of Christ Jesus and all that means, or do you refuse to live life on life’s terms?  I know, HUGE questions, but what are your sincere answers?  Proverbs 13:5 states, “The righteous hate what is false, but the wicked use it to bring shame and disgrace.”  Is being true and real more important to you than having vain imaginations just so you can look better in front of your peers and others?  Is having ANY fantasy in your real life, beyond simple entertainment, ever a good thing?  When people look to, into, and at you do they really get what they see?  Are you authentic to the core?  Ecclesiastes 5:7 says, “Much fantasy and many words are meaningless.  Therefore stand in awe of God.”

Being insincere or fake is the antithesis of being a true Christ Follower.  After all Jesus is The Truth and if we are truly to be called His, then we must also be truthful and transparent as He was.  Captain Kirk chose a real death rather than a false life.  So did Jesus.  As my dear friend Glenn Kaiser says, “It will cost you everything to follow Jesus, and it will also cost you everything if you don’t.”  So why hold back and hold onto the fantasies in your life?  You say you want to be more like Jesus?  Then BE more like Jesus and don’t hold back the truth in ANY part of your life.  Because being fake is just not worth it.  And others are watching you and they desperately need the truth from you, it could make a huge difference in their lives.

Love and ……

Kirk out!

P.s.  Being totally authentic and real is not always easy in this life.  Yet, as individuals it is something that Christ requires of us.  Now widen the scope to collections of individual Christians…what we call the Church.  Is the “church” you attend fully truthful, authentic and real?  Or is it just a Sunday morning show complete with hip music, lights and an entertaining pep talk?  In the end the true Church is all about authentic relationship with Christ and one another, relationships that run even deeper than family.  Without deep fellowship and sincere involvement in each others lives on more than Sundays we will never really be the Church that Jesus meant for us to be.  Me?  I am done with the fake, false and insincere.  I would rather have one tiny bit of what is truthful and real…than a whole shitload of something less than genuine.  So I choose what is simple, organic, true and relational over the impostor every day.  My path is rarely easy, but I embrace it’s gritty reality with a kung fu death grip and say to Jesus ……bring it on my Lord!

Our poor puppy with the two broken front legs requires surgery, Her medical bills are already more than $1900.00 and we need help from those who are led and able to give it. So we have started a gofundme page. Every gift helps please prayerfully consider donating my friends? I am posting the link below.

“Only Nixon could go to China.”


In the movie, “Star Trek 6: The Undiscovered Country” Spock quoted this old Vulcan (Ha Ha) proverb to Captain Kirk just before they were to host a diplomatic dinner with The Klingon Chancellor and his advisors aboard the Starship Enterprise.  Problem is the last thing Kirk wants to do is to discuss peace with a Klingon because a Klingon murdered his son and he is still nursing deep wounds over that incident.  Kirk has an extensive history with the Klingons including battle situations, and he tends to view them as “animals” because of past history and what happened with his son.

Peace is not something that Kirk sees as desirable or even possible.  He has been wronged and he is unwilling to forgive or let go of his personal pain.  How many of us have been there?  Most likely not due to the loss of a son, but wronged and unwilling to forgive is a place that most of us visit at least once in our lives.  I know I have spent a season or two there and I definitely do not recommend it.  Being unwilling to forgive damages our “heart” and leads to bitterness.  And bitterness is a stone cold killer that destroys everything in its path, including relationships.  There can be no peace where bitterness is allowed to live.  So, “Get rid of all bitterness, rage and anger, brawling and slander, along with every form of malice.  Be kind and compassionate to one another, forgiving each other, just as in Christ God forgave you.” (Ephesians 4:31-32)

Forgiveness is the key that unlocks our hearts and allows us to truly live free in Jesus.  Refusing to forgive brings severe bitterness, rage, anger and eventually malice.  Malice is defined as “a desire to harm others or to see others suffer.”  An “Eye for an eye” may sound reasonable for severe offenses, but it is not the way of Jesus or the cross.  In the long run such attitudes and behavior only cause us to suffer.  Other people will wrong us in this life, and it is how we respond to such wrongs that helps define our lives.  Because we are to, “Make every effort to live in peace with all men and to be holy; without holiness no one will see The Lord.  See to it that no one misses the grace of God and that no bitter root grows up to cause trouble and defile many.”  (Hebrews 12:14-15)

We need to remember who forgiveness is for.  We forgive because Jesus desires us to and because it sets US free.  The person we forgive will still have to stand before God due to their offense. Forgiveness lets us off the hook, not them.  I know that my personal progressive freedom from PTSD and horrific flashbacks of childhood rapes and other physical, verbal and emotional abuse at the hands of my natural father coincided with the level of forgiveness I had in my heart towards my Dad.  Tough choices for sure, but well worth the time and effort.  I can certainly testify that Christ can heal ANY wound or situation we surrender unto Him.

Captain James T. Kirk eventually forgave the Klingons.  Who do we need to forgive TODAY?

Love and…….

Kirk Out!

P.s. Please pray for our 6 month old Pom puppy? She broke both front arms while jumping off our bed. Her name is M E Loo, but we call her Missy or Baby. We are being referred to a specialist and it has already been very expensive wiping out most of our savings for Searching Together and other travel, She is definitely part of our family and we love her greatly.

P.s. Also please pray for me as I have a echo cardiogram tomorrow morning?

Prepare To Be Amazed….


“Pray also for me, that whenever I open my mouth, words may be given me so that I will fearlessly make known the mystery of the gospel.”  Ephesians 6: 19

Many people have recently asked me why I have so much success in leading all kinds of people to Jesus. They wanted to know if I had a rehearsed plan or spiel, like the “Roman’s road or The Four Spiritual Laws”, that I used to get folks to “buy in” to Jesus.  I can honestly say that I have no advance plan, agenda, script or formula that I follow in sharing Christ with others.  My sharing with them is always entirely spontaneous and Spirit led, moment by moment.

What I say to people can be a mixture of my personal testimony, actual words of Jesus, or other pertinent passages from the bible.  I always try to speak from the heart, not from a script.  I seriously doubt if I have ever used the same exact wording with more than one person.  I feel the main reason I easily connect with others is because I am authentic, real and genuine. With me what you see is exactly what you get with absolutely no guile or pretense. (But even I have bad days)  I sincerely love all people and it shows and that draws people to me I am certain.  I view all people as precious and valuable to God and potential members of my Spiritual family.  I see the spark of HIS Creation in everyone’s life and only want to offer them a full and rewarding relationship with Jesus and The Body Of Christ.

Another reason I have been able to impact lives with the Love and acceptance of Christ is that I pray continually for Jesus to prepare the hearts and minds of the people He is going to put me in direct contact with.  I also pray and submit my will to Him asking that He continually prepare my heart, mind and message; so that I can always be ready for those He sends my way on a given day.  This is not rocket science.  I purposely and intentionally make myself available to Him and others.  When I do this He fully equips me and makes me more than able to share the Truth in Love with whosoever will.  You see it really is ALL about Him and not about me.

I hope you can now see how simple sharing Christ can be?  It doesn’t take smarts and extreme biblical knowledge.  All it takes is an open heart and complete surrender to the pathway He picks for you.  Along the way on that path you will encounter those who need His Love, Grace, Mercy and Truth.  Then in the proper moment simply open your mouth and allow Him to speak His words through you.  It is all about simple conversations, real give and take dialogue.  Worked for Jesus, worked for Paul and it still works for me.  “Perfect Love casts out all fear.”  Trust Jesus to use you in this manner also, and then prepare to be amazed.

Love and…..

Kirk Out !

The Very Next Day More Gay


“All this is from God, who reconciled us to Himself through Christ and gave us the ministry of reconciliation: that God was reconciling the world to Himself in Christ, not counting men’s sins against them. And He has committed to us the message of reconciliation. We are therefore Christ’s ambassadors, as though God was making His appeal through us.” 2 Corinthians 5: 18-20

The very next morning after the hot tub baptisms we checked out of the very nice hotel and had to go back to our broken home and basically squat in the master bedroom and half bath with renovations going on every elsewhere. This would be our lives for the next few months. Talena and I and our puppy Lil Joe stuck in that one room. It had all the potential of a steel cage deathmatch, but The Holy Spirit had Grace and Mercy for us and we did not have too many arguments or word battles.

After we unpacked the SUV and got settled in I was off to the grocery store. The kitchen was still a bit of a mess, but if we watched our steps and were careful we could still use the stove and refrigerator to make simple meals thank GOD. While in the checkout lane I noticed a young woman wearing a tie-dye shirt almost like the one I had on. I said “Great shirt!” and she responded with “Great shirt! Are you gay too?” She introduced herself as Barb and also introduced her partner Toni. I told them I was not gay, just fashionable; but I had gay friends and just baptized 2 of them yesterday. Toni said, “So you are a minister?” I replied no, not in the conventional sense like a paid Pastor; but yes in the fact that I Love and serve Jesus and freely share HIS Love, Grace, Truth and Mercy with everyone I can. Both of them then said in unison “We need to talk!” The Holy Spirit was thick like wild honey and this guy who looks sorta like John The Baptist (No haircut or shaving since the pandemic began) was just loving it.

After we all got checked out we talked about Jesus for about 15 minutes in the parking lot. They were blown away that Jesus, me and our fellowship did not judge or condemn them for being homosexual. All the other Christians and “churches” they had ever encountered either judged them or would not give them the time of day. I told them that was because they did not really know Jesus or His will or His ways. We then discussed what Love really is and also Grace, Truth and Mercy. They were totally digging it and said they were ready for the next step “Whatever that is?” I said all prayer really was just a lifelong conversation with Jesus and that they could begin that journey right now. All they needed to do was affirm that Jesus would now be their Lord forevermore and that they would follow Him as best as they could with the Holy Spirit’s leading. They did so gladly and began praying in tongues without any prodding or pushing.

I then gave both of them big hugs and welcomed them fully into the family of God. They took my information and we tearfully parted ways for the time being. Since that September day they have called for encouragement several times, and have talked about coming here to our fellowship gathering. They live in Canada, but come down here to Bellingham about once a month to shop. Please, Please, Please pray for Barb and Toni? They need to grow and need to find fellowship hopefully near them. Pretty wild stuff I know with Jesus using hot tubs and funky shirts and such. This is why we must be ready to share the Truth in Love with others along the way. You never know what HE may use in order to reach others.

Love and …..

Kirk Out !