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Fifty Four Years And Counting

April 16, 2016


“Praise be to the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ!  In His great mercy He has given us new birth into a living hope through the resurrection of Jesus Christ from the dead, and into an inheritance that can never perish, spoil or fade – kept in heaven for you, who through faith are shielded by God’s power until the coming of the salvation that is ready to be revealed in the last time.  In this you greatly rejoice, though now for a little while you may have have had to suffer grief in all kinds of trials.  These have come so that your faith – of greater worth than gold, which perishes even though refined by fire – may be proved genuine and may result in praise, glory and honor when Jesus Christ is revealed.  1 Peter 1: 3-7

Today, April 16th, is my 54’th birthday and I am not totally sure how I feel about it.  I guess I have mixed feelings, but most of them are good and extremely positive.  With all that happened in my childhood I feel fortunate to have lived to this ripe old age.  I have faced death on a number of occasions, once even before I was born, when my father kicked my mother in the stomach when she was just over 6 months pregnant with me.  This resulted in my premature, dry breach, birth that had many complications and nearly killed both me and my mother.  As it turned out, my father trying to kill me would be a reoccurring theme in my life. However, as always, Jesus was watching out over me protecting, teaching and loving me even way back then.

Am I where I dreamed I would be at this age?  Again I am not sure, because I never really thought I would live this long in the first place.  Looking back though I guess that overall I have done alright.  My failed marriage of 30 years is really the only non-positive outcome in my life as of right now, and our break up was certainly not entirely my fault.  However, since our separation and eventual divorce we have both grown and flourished in ways we probably couldn’t have if we had stayed together.  I am even tempted to say we are both better off now because of splitting up.  Then there is the PTSD, but the PTSD is finally manageable after 18 years of living hell.  I have not had a crippling flashback episode in over thirty two months.  Praise Jesus! On the plus side all four of my children are well and serving Jesus in various positive ways. My relationships with my children are most excellent and I just love being a grandfather to three year old Kaden, two year old Owen and the one year old twins Augustus and Annabelle.  My friendships are as good as they ever have been with much life and quality and the home fellowships I am involved in helping are really flourishing and growing in all the good ways.  That and I still have a small private addictions counseling practice called “Creative Conversations” that keeps me as busy as I want to be.  Most importantly my relationship with Jesus is perhaps the best it has ever been.  I walk with Him and He does indeed bless me in all these areas of my life.  So yeah I am 54, but I really can’t complain.  Plus I still have good hair and good teeth!

Sure 54 years is a major milestone, but the most important thing in this life is the NEW BIRTH that He freely grants us all, if we only turn to Him.  This new birth is about having a LIVING hope through the resurrection of Jesus, and because of this He grants us an inheritance that will never be taken from us.  Sure obstacles and trials will come our way, but these only serve to prove our faith.  I know I have been tried and tested, but in the end HE is always with me and He equips me to get through every and any trial that satan, this world or even myself places in front of me.  We can be our own worst enemies at times can’t we?  I know my faith is genuine because of all the very difficult shit He has brought me through.  I surrender to Jesus all the praise, glory and honor.  Jesus was with me loving, protecting and teaching me when I was a child and now that I am 54 He does exactly the same, but even at a greater depth due to my ability to reason with Him as an adult.  I may be 54, but I will also ALWAYS be His child.  So I cry ABBA Father and He is with me today on my birthday and forevermore.

Love and …..

Kirk Out !

P.s. I would also appreciate prayer for the second year of a business venture I am involved in with my son Caleb.  Last year we bought a truck and put together a asphalt sealcoating machine and we paid off the equipment and made a small profit.  This season we hope to make a good living sealing driveways and parking lots mostly door to door.






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  1. Congrats on your birthday, and prayers for the success of your business!

  2. Sue heumann permalink

    Congrats on seeing the Lord in your life. We’ll understand it even better by and by…..praising God for His work in you👏

    • Thank you Sue. As usual you really bless and encourage me. Christ has gifted you in this manner for sure.

  3. Jonathan Lindvall permalink

    Thanks for this testimony. Your openness is refreshing and appealing. Your heart comes through. If you have previously shared the story of your journey of how Jesus initially captured you, I would love to also read or hear that.

    • Thank you for the encouragement Jonathan. Real and authentic is the only way to truly live and honor Christ IMHO. My testimony is scattered among many blog posts here. Please check out the “About Captain KIrk” tab at the top left of these posts. Much of my testimony is written down there.

  4. Well done! You made it through youth!
    The best is certainly yet to come!

  5. Tom Ball permalink

    I am happy for all that is positive in your life on this, your 54th birthday, Chris. Keep the victory 🙂

    • Thank you Tom for being a source of great encouragement to me over the years. You set a wonderful example of faith and victory.

  6. Ramma permalink

    My apologies for being 2 days late to wish you a happy birthday! Much love to you and an even more successful year this year with you and your son’s business. It’s good every once in a while to look back just to see how far HE has brought us. Bless you!

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