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The Freedom To Move Forward

October 5, 2012

Greetings,

“O Lord, how many are my foes!  How many rise up against me!  Many are saying of me, “God will not deliver him.”  Selah

But you are a shield around me, O Lord; you bestow glory on me and lift up my head.  To the Lord I cry aloud, and He answers me from His holy hill.  Selah

I lie down and sleep; I wake again, because the Lord sustains me.  I will not fear the tens of thousands drawn up against me on every side.  Arise, O Lord!  Deliver me, O my God!  Strike all my enemies on the jaw; break the teeth of the wicked.  From the Lord comes deliverance.  May your blessing be on your people.  Selah   Psalm 3

I am now in the process of living this Psalm out every day of my life.  My foes are PTSD flashbacks and they are many.  Some have given up on me and are saying I will not recover from my affliction.

However, The Lord is my shield and He indeed does lift up my head.  I cry out to Jesus and He rescues me, time and time again.  I am now sleeping again and The Lord sustains me.  I will no longer fear the multitude of flashbacks that have tried to hold me captive oh so long.  I look to The Lord and He brings me deliverance.

This past week has been amazing with so many breakthroughs that I now cry tears of joy even as I write this.  Jesus has invaded my dreams and He has driven out the enemy.  Now when I have a flashback Jesus is right there with me speaking words of comfort, love and freedom.  I have not felt such freedom in over 13 years.  

Family members, friends and previous doctors and counselors had given up on me.  However now I rise up from the ashes and I feel His hand upon me like never before.  It is like a new chapter in my life is being written and I am amazed.  I can now look to the future with a renewed hope and clarity of vision.  Am I completely out of the woods yet?  Only time will tell, but just like Jesus led me out of the woods when I was a young child, He is now in my sight again and all I want to do is follow Him.

I am very thankful for the multitude of prayers and words of encouragement that I have received from The Body Of Christ these past 13 years.  Thanks also to those of you following this blog that have interceded for me countless times.  I wish I could put into words how I am feeling right now, but it is so beyond words that I can’t even start.  All I can say is GOD IS AWESOME!  Please allow Him to work in your life as He has in mine?

Love and ….

Kirk Out !

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5 Comments
  1. YES!!! Jesus is powerful in the lives of those who love him! I love you brother! So glad to be in association with you,
    Marc

  2. CATHY TAYLOR permalink

    WHAT A GREAT VICTORY, ONE WALL DOWN, KEEP ON GOING YOU HAVE ALREADY WON GOD AND FRIENDS AND LOVED ONES WILL NEVER GIVE UP ON YOU, AND WILL BE THERE TO CHEER YOU ON LOVE CATHY

  3. CATHYTAYLOR permalink

    GREAT VICTORY ONE WALL DOWN YOU ALREADY HAVE OVERCOME AND WITH JESUS HAND IN YOUR YOU WILL ALWAYS WIN THE VICTORY WITH FAMILY FRIENDS AND LOVED ONES CHEERING YOU ON HOW CAN YOU LOOSE WILL ALWAYS BE THERE TO ENCOURAGE AND HELP LOVE CATHY

  4. "BK" permalink

    Isa.61
    [1] The Spirit of the Lord GOD is upon me; because the LORD hath anointed me to preach good tidings unto the meek; he hath sent me to bind up the brokenhearted, to proclaim liberty to the captives, and the opening of the prison to them that are bound;
    [2] To proclaim the acceptable year of the LORD, and the day of vengeance of our God; to comfort all that mourn;
    [3] To appoint unto them that mourn in Zion, to give unto them beauty for ashes, the oil of joy for mourning, the garment of praise for the spirit of heaviness; that they might be called trees of righteousness, the planting of the LORD, that he might be glorified.
    [4] And they shall build the old wastes, they shall raise up the former desolations, and they shall repair the waste cities, the desolations of many generations.
    [5] And strangers shall stand and feed your flocks, and the sons of the alien shall be your plowmen and your vinedressers.
    [6] But ye shall be named the Priests of the LORD: men shall call you the Ministers of our God: ye shall eat the riches of the Gentiles, and in their glory shall ye boast yourselves.
    [7] For your shame ye shall have double; and for confusion they shall rejoice in their portion: therefore in their land they shall possess the double: everlasting joy shall be unto them.

    If you word search ‘beauty’ in vs 3 it first translates headdress (which to me indicated ‘covering’). One day I took it one step farther back and found its root to mean ‘bright green foliage’. In the Spring, when new leaves are forming they are much brighter green than the previous. So, I now see this to mean ‘out of the ashes grows the tree of Life’. Sure fits here, Chris. I am more than thankful, love, “BK”

  5. Wonderful news Chris!!

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