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50 Years

April 16, 2012


“Praise be to the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ!  In His great mercy He has given us new birth into a living hope through the resurrection of Jesus Christ from the dead, and into an inheritance that can never perish, spoil or fade – kept in heaven for you, who through faith are shielded by God’s power until the coming of the salvation that is ready to be revealed in the last time.  In this you greatly rejoice, though now for a little while you may have have had to suffer grief in all kinds of trials.  These have come so that your faith – of greater worth than gold, which perishes even though refined by fire – may be proved genuine and may result in praise, glory and honor when Jesus Christ is revealed.  1 Peter 1: 3-7

Today is my 50th birthday and I am not totally sure how I feel about it.  I guess I have mixed feelings about it, but most of them are good.  With all that happened in my childhood I feel fortunate to have lived to this ripe old age.  I have faced death a number of times, once even before I was born, when my father kicked my mother in the stomach when she was just over 6 months pregnant with me.  This resulted in my premature birth that had many complications and nearly killed both me and my mother. As it turned out, my father trying to kill me would be a reoccurring event in my life.  However, as always, Jesus was watching out over me protecting and loving me even way back then.

Am I where I dreamed I would be at this age?  Again I am not sure, because I never really thought I would live this long in the first place.  Looking back though I guess that overall I have done alright.  My recently failed marriage of 30 years is really the only non-positive thing in my life right now, and our break up was not entirely my fault.  Then there is the PTSD, but the PTSD is finally manageable after 13 years of hell.  Praise God!  On the plus side all four of my children are well and serving Jesus in various positive ways. My relationships with my children are most excellent.  My friendships are as good as they ever have been with much life and quality and the home fellowships I am involved in helping are really flourishing and growing in all the good ways.  That and I still have a small private addictions counseling practice called “Creative Conversations” that keeps me as busy as I want to be. Most importantly my relationship with Jesus is perhaps the best it has ever been.  I walk with Him and He does indeed bless me in all these areas of my life in Him.  So yeah I am 50, but I really can’t complain.  Plus I still have good hair and good teeth!

Sure 50 years is a major milestone, but the most important thing in this life is the NEW BIRTH that He freely grants us all, if we only turn to Him.  This new birth is about having a LIVING hope through the resurrection of Jesus, and because of this He grants us an inheritance that will never be taken from us.  Sure obstacles and trials will come our way, but these only serve to prove our faith.  I know I have been tried and tested, but in the end HE is always with me and He equips me to get through every and any trial that satan, this world or even myself places in front of me. We can be our own worst enemies at times can’t we?  I know my faith is genuine because of all the shit He has brought me through.  I surrender to Jesus all the praise, glory and honor.  Jesus was with me loving, protecting and teaching me when I was a child and now that I am 50 He does exactly the same, but even at a greater depth due to my ability to reason with Him as an adult.  I may be 50, but I will also ALWAYS be His child.  So I cry ABBA Father and He is with me forever.

Love and …..

Kirk Out !



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  1. Tam permalink

    Happy Birthday Chris! May God’s awesome blessings
    Be upon you this day

  2. Many Happy Returns of the day, and may it be followed by twelve months of good times.

  3. Kirk,

    Glad you are still with us and doing so well. I am looking forward to many more of your blogs and even hope to see you in the near future. I remember having a conversation with my grandfather when he turned 70. He said, “The Bible says that it is appointed a man to live three score and ten years, so I figure that every year I live from here on out is a bonus.” Well, I have two and a half years until I have that same conversation with MY grandchild. I wish I could say that it has all been fun and that is why the years have flown by, but that has not been the case. Yet, I know that everything that Father has allowed in my life has been to bring me to the end of myself and closer to Him as one of His sons. I, too, had to deal with PTSD from Vietnam and a whole bucket load of rejection issues in my life, but He gave me a wife and told me when I met her, “Don’t loose this one. She WILL go the distance.” I didn’t walk away from her that day and in August we will have been married for 46 years.

    So, my brother, know that in God’s kingdom there is no time and as we abide in His rest there is no evil that tomorrow can bring. His grace is sufficient for us in all things as they happen.

    Love you a bunch,


  4. Happy Birthday! May your latter years be full of wisdom and grace! Blessings, John

  5. Happy 50, and many more to come! Live long and prosper, Captain Kirk!

  6. I’m really not looking forward to this…only 37 days to go. Thanks for blazing the trail for me!

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